A portrait of an unpleasant-looking man with green hair.

The question often asked by outsiders is, “why do you accept this type of behavior?” They assume that if it were them, they’d have left the moment it started. What they fail to realize is that narcissistic abuse is normally a gradual process. Abusers want their victims to accept the harshness as part of our […]

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A painting of a woman about to dive, and another woman mid-leap, watched by a group of three in the foreground.

I once tried to kill myself. I was not successful in my attempt, though I do not think I cared either way at that point. I had reached rock bottom and ambivalence is the only emotion that survives there. It has been said that only the good die young and I have never been good […]

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A portrait of a face that falls somewhere between cubist and impressionist.

You aren’t going to want to hear this. You’re headstrong, stubborn, independent and determined. These are all qualities which will be useful later in life, but—you should hear me out. I write this because I know what happens next. I know what you were forced to do, how you suffered then and for so many […]

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Am impressionist painting of a woman;.

I am sure many people can relate to the symptoms and causes of depression and PTSD. I have been living with depression most of my life and have been in denial up until recent years. The PTSD has only just been recognized in the past year—back in the 70’s/80’s it wasn’t a common diagnosis among […]

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My Inner Baby

February 28, 2019

About two weeks ago, I discussed with my therapist about my feelings of loneliness and how I automatically translate my loneliness to people not caring about me, then me not wanting to care about myself. I come to the ultimate conclusion that I do not matter, and that I might as well cease to exist. […]

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Walking along the shores of my life I realized that I missed the warning signs of the coming tsunami. It was there, the news flashes, the sirens went off and pressure sensors showed an increase in pressure, but I chose to ignore it. I noticed it, heard it but I chose to not heed the […]

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A painting of a naked woman holding something like a rope above her.

When I started graduate school for my MSW, I remember thinking that it was time for me to change in myriad ways. The jig was up! I could no longer continue my unhealthy or self-sabotaging behaviors, or else everyone would find out that I was a fraud. The behaviors did not change overnight, so instead […]

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As a mind-body wellness practitioner and yoga teacher, I was bound by joy when I discovered yoga is classified as “sensorimotor psychotherapy” in a PTSD workshop. This was incredibly refreshing and in lieu of this I could really sense the medical and scientific backing of yogic healing. The classification implies direct inquiry into the science […]

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